The 2014-2015 school year is coming to an end at Lakeview High School and although saying goodbye to the seniors will be hard, I have never wanted a school year to be over so much in my life. This year has been full of stress, late nights of studying and typing, endless homework, impossible tests, and a few hundred thoughts of dropping out of school and going to work at Wal-Mart (not that there's anything wrong with Wal-mart. Ask me how many times I go there a week). We have buckled down and taken our ACT, we have redone our schedules for next year about 10 times, and it's finally real; we are going to be seniors in a month.
There are so many views on being a senior and I'm not sure which one I'm leaning towards more. There's the "I cant wait to be a senior because I hate everyone and want to get out of here" view, and then there's the "I don't want to grow up and move away and be independent" view. I feel as though I'm somewhere in the middle
I can't wait to be a senior because that is what I have been working my whole life for. All the bitter sweet years of school in the Lakeview School district have been leading up to this moment. You get seniority over basically everything and get to go home and take a nap during open lunch every day because let's be honest here, that sounds pretty good in the middle of the school day. You also start to get excited for your future, being independent, and being able to move on with your life. You can make new friends and learn something that could actually pertain to what you want to do for the rest of your life and take classes that you are actually interested in; however there are some downfalls.
With becoming a senior, you begin to have your last everything. Last first day of school (in high school, not pertaining to college), last homecoming dance, last football game that you will ever cheer at, last track meet you get to run at, last everything. You also get the great amount of nervousness and anxiety with where to go to school and what to go to school for and if you will get in or not; not to mention all the scholarships and essays you are going to have to write. And then there's the fear of growing up and becoming independent; not being able to live off of your parents as much and the thought that you may not be able to live with them ever again.
Being a senior evokes a lot of emotions and although my use of pathos in these paragraphs may have made you confused pertaining to your feelings, think about this; we are almost done with the preparation that will lead us through the rest of our lives and as one of my favorite movies, The Fault in our Stars, once said, we're on a "roller coaster that only goes up, my friend."
Great blog post! I can absolutely relate to your complications and worries. All of us juniors know where you are coming from and have the same feelings towards being a senior next year. I want this year to be over but I don't want to be one step closer to college. But then again I do because I myself am getting pretty annoyed with high school and all the people en-caged in it surrounding me. I also liked the allusion you made to "The Fault in Our Stars" and how it relates to our predicaments. To say, "we're on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend" ties back into the problem stated earlier about being indecisive on being a senior because it reminds us that everything will turn out okay, and that we need to be optimistic. I love how I can relate to your post.
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